Yes, much violence

My response to the League of Canadian Poets comment about the violence in Patrick Lane's poetry:

Yes, much violence:

…the bright burnt hole in an eye

that has looked too long at the sun.

Something at the end of the mind

cries out.

…what is wild is lost behind closed eyes:

albino birds, pale sisters, succubi.

That the man walking beside me

had a boot full of blood was nothing more

than the end of day. A man who had opened

his body with an axe.

…the kind of blood he knew as a child when

the dull, crazed silence of his own hands

tore a wall to pieces because it was morning

and there was nothing else to do but destroy.

                                   ****

Coincidentally, a poem I am working on bears similarity. I spent a night asleep as the captain stayed awake all night in a hurricane, with an axe, ready to cut the lines to the Hakai Pass dock. The fish boat was so large it could have ripped out the entire dock and its structure:

I can't remember a thing: Revisiting Hakai Pass 
I can't remember a thing about our lives before this morning.
We left our city at night and return at night.
                                                              * Anne Michaels.

I can’t remember a thing: captain holding his axe

all the black night while I sleep baby-unaware-slumber

that makes a parent silent before what he fears to lose.

Small in my crib, narrow cabin in sluicing fish packer

deck. The weather channel zeros in from safety.

Bulging black pushes aside my captain all night, while

I dream West Beach, dripping-face wolf drool me

to meat. The Kermode I never dream, only black

leather ocean, water drops scattering until sea sucks

them home. Lullaby end is fingers on a forehead, moss-

strangled trees a blade forgot, now decadent, as loggers

say, meaning old men with beards, strands they pull

and stare through tables, no search for meaning

in wolf’s throat-back howl they’d otherwise call

language. Can the wolf hear me listening? His teeth-

bared language from his vocal gramophone fills my

blind ear. In forest bent like grass I am still asleep,

against the wooden shelf edge meant to keep my body

from hitting deck in smacking sea. I dream Hartley

Bay snow on a Silent Night dock. My captain’s

aboriginals sent us into night with the most important

food group: cinnamon buns, I kept from my captain

in a hurricane. He’s awake in the black, eye on lines

he may have to cleave, engine dieseling like insurance.

Our hundred-ton fish packer could rip the entire dock,

set adrift a continent of other beings: old men trees

wind has bled for decades. I dream a green millennium,

the wolf with his eyes, where sea lions drop through

purple fringe morning, tons on either side of my

Boston Whaler skiff, cold ocean surrounding me,

as it does an iceberg – a python no thing ever

notices. I dream a Grumman Goose, my starboard

window leans my face into green that is black

and also blue, depending on what the captain

reveals to my eyes. I dream my hands, the dead

bloated meat they become, eaten by pins that

are coho teeth, backs of hands wound in 30-pound

test, Daiwa, Okuma, filaments of man come all

the way from China. And then our morning: I

wake, black axe in my hand, to cut the dinghy free.

Conflicted sea south of Cape Calvert – a death we

now have to face – a mighty boot against the dash,

my Asic runner against a beam in sea that has no

need of us. Outflow wind against in-coming sea

slaps waves ten feet above our eyes. Not thinking

Lincoln, lilac bent over my fence, not my captain.

Ribs jolt my guts each time we hit. There’s no

point being afraid, that may just kill us.

on being brothers before being men after Patrick Lane “Brothers”

on being brothers before being men

                        after Patrick Lane “Brothers”

this morning i read it again

in bed

to see it, hear

the way he travelled before he knew

he was nearly blind, before he

woke

to know all things die and

every stolen moment, every small delight

will pass and

fear will come but here in the fenced garden

the sun and breeze bring solace

make bearable

the weight of such knowing, make possible

aligning words to catch

the impossible

fragility of being, growing older, becoming

more than brothers, how beauty

can sustain us

spiders, webs, bees, blossoms hanging open

tomatoes nearly ripe, shower of beans

swelling squash

with words light on my tongue, dark 

on this page, threads, tying us together

the few of us

becoming men who admit the pain, 

plain words to make seeing possible

to see beauty

threaded through the day, a skein of lines

we hear to keep us alive in our turn

round the sun, around

one another.

My Life Changed - Lesley Strutt

“Your life changed because of that poetry workshop you took with Patrick Lane, Lesley,” my best friend said to me one day. She’s not given to hyperbole. What she said was the simple truth. That first poetry workshop with Patrick changed my life because he challenged me to listen deeply to myself. 

I wasn’t even supposed to be in that 2005 Booming Ground workshop at UBC. I’d applied to the beginner’s class but there weren’t enough students, so I was invited to the intermediate class with Patrick. I accepted the offer, though I was shaken. I didn’t feel I was good enough. 

He was a tough teacher, at least for me. The poems I brought to class in the first few days were overworked pieces of shit, and he said so, though not in those words. He would pick out one good line and tell me to drop the rest. The other students were far along in their writing careers and produced beautiful work. I heard the difference and learned from listening to their work. I learned from listening to Patrick listen. 

Once when I was reading my latest piece in a clipped, too-fast voice, he slammed his hand down on the table to stop me and said, “Never disrespect your poetry. Start again.” 

Finally, I began to really listen to myself. I dug deep, deeper than I’d ever dared, and there I found parts of myself I’d denied or ignored or buried. The poem I brought to class the next day after a long sleepless night, wasn’t pretty, or poetic, or romantic the way I thought my poetry should be. It was a stark poem portraying an abused woman, the moment she realizes she’s abused, and she stays. 

Water Boiling

The pot is boiling on the kitchen stove.

Into it she drops:

two hands small as butterflies

two eyes wide open

two flat feet

and something hard, something heavy –

        turned to stone.

The sudden splash of water, quick

as his last slap,

snaps her head back.

She is so still

in the fading, the light

then. She lifts a spoon and

stirs

until

she’s done.

When I finished reading that poem, the class was silent. Patrick let out a deep breath and said, “Now, that’s a poem.” I published that poem in the 2007 issue of the Canadian Woman Studies Journal devoted to ending woman abuse. I had turned a corner. 

When I began to listen to that inner voice, I could no longer put myself back into the closet and hide. I started to tell myself the dangerous truth. I left my marriage of 20 years. I started my life over with the intention of listening to myself no matter what the consequences. I wanted to live my life with the kind of honesty that asks everything of you, without compromise. But even the best of intentions can be abandoned, and I did so many times. 

I took other workshops with Patrick over the next 7 years. He held my hand to the fire each time and though I was often angry at him for doing it, I was grateful. I came away with another part of me peeled back, and each time I’d produced at least one poem that stood the test. With practice, I believe I’ve become the kind of person who tries to live as honestly as possible. Toward the end of his life, and at the time I met him, Patrick was certainly trying to be that kind of person. But all through his life, he wrote poetry that told the truth. He couldn’t hide when he wrote. It mattered too much.

AS HEARTBEAT, AS SIBILANCE - For Patrick - Wendy Donawa

Salt air scouring the cliffs and April sun
on the grassed slope about to burst
into a blue tide of camas washing the wind.
From the corner of your mind’s eye, conjure
the meadow, the women, their digging sticks,
canoes loaded with camas bulbs, the coastal trade.
Meadow, women, canoes, all fade in time’s solvent.

The drought has frightened my rosemary bushes into
indigo astonishment. Press a branch between your palms,
breathe and breathe that aromatic gift before it’s gone.

How briefly the starburst spangle of crabapple blossom
flares, already carpets the path to the lake.

Sift and settle of fog swallows the sun.

All is ghost and patina, rust and tarnish,
And gravity, inexorable, drags roots down into the dark.
But bless the carrion, their work beneath surfaces.
Bless microbes and insects at their intricate tasks, and
small burrowing creatures scuttling from the owl’s claw.

Bless the mutable mutable world where we gather
to laugh and weep over good bread, over dinner’s steam
of cardamom, ginger, cumin rising like a blessing,
and remember how he conducted his poems like music,
taught us cadence as heartbeat, as sibilance.

Alchemy of the always-inadequate word, his sorcery,
words clamber the backbrain from the wordless deep.
The word is never the thing—but we struggle to craft
the startling, the lovely, the ambiguous,
.
and remember how he raised his head slowly from reading
to tell us with kindness, and surgical precision,
how to make our poems better.

                   
                                                                  Patrick Lane
                                                    March 26, 1939 - March 7, 2019

The world has lost a great writer. Writers, poets and others have lost a great mentor, friend, husband and in the end, family man. This is the space for all of these people to come and leave a tribute to the man, poet and novelist.

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"Patrick Lane has always walked the thin ice where truth and terror meet with a kind of savage intuition."   
                                                                                    Vancouver Sun

"Patrick Lane shouldn't just win the GG's award, he should be canonized."